I could write with words and rhymes. But those are left,best, for another time. When little ones have things to say.So, I shall step aside. And let them write with their fears and tears. See what life is like,for them.While looking through the eyes of a child. Fear has overcome them. Afraid of everyone.Once again.
Too scared of everyone. Want to hide. Can’t look at anyone. Too afraid to talk. Ladies do bad things to us. Men do worse bad things to us. Ladies and men together hurt us more. Need to stay away from everyone. Don’t trust.
Don’t like knowing people have some body parts.Too scary.Hurt me.Stay away from everyone.Everyone will do bad stuff to me.Don’t want no one by me if I know they have body parts. Worlds too scary like this. Can’t go nowhere. People everywhere. Not safe in church,by people with those parts. Not safe in stores. Like it better when I don’t know. When people are like paper dolls with nothing. Trying to forget. But everyone is going to hurt me. Two people together will hurt me more. I see it in my head all the time. Too scared to talk to anyone.
****There was a post early on, called Paper Dolls, to explain this more. It only feels somewhat safe, for little ones, if they see everyone as Paper Dolls with no male or female parts. But when, for whatever reason, they know for awhile, that people do have body parts they hate, and that they are terrified of-they fall to pieces. This is where life stands for them right now. Then flashbacks intensify and they see nice people they know- as abusing and torturing them. There is no trust. Only being terrified.Of everyone. They think everyone will abuse them sooner or later. They expect all the ladies to team up with their guys or guy friends to do terrible stuff to them. This would also not be a time to expect them to sit around a table with people, since it is associated with abuse by a number of people at a time, done to them.It is not a time for them to sit right next to someone. Too close, knowing people have body parts, sickens them. It means abuse and torture is coming.
They feel it’s safer to hide. If they say anything and are noticed, people will abuse them right then. And with the worst of the worst memories and flashbacks going on- they are already being tortured all day long. They feel if they say anything- you will see what the grandfather is torturing them with, at the creek, and you will join him in doing that to them. That you will get together with the grandfather’s friends and do bad stuff to them. Abuse and torture is bad enough with one person doing it. But anymore than one person being around- always means bad stuff will definitely be done to them.